Quitting Smoking: Entry 3

Day 8 was sort of a breeze. Mostly because I shut myself inside with a book as soon as I got home from work, and didn't really even move until I decided to go to sleep. However, in my sleep I did find myself conscious of dreaming, and again attempted to control my dreams. It was difficult (getting completely "in control" when I'm lucid has never been easy, but possible) and there were quite a bit of details I could not change, despite my efforts. I do recall waking more than once, and quickly would return to conscious dreamstate. The dream could have been scary were I not aware of and attempting to control it. I guess I need to get laid more, because when I'm lucid that's typically the first thing I try to do. lol. It worked, but it was gross. Incase you were wondering.

Day 9, I have found myself virtually craving-free. The scent of smokers as they are just returning from their smoke-break is enough to keep them at bay when they come. The driving thing is still an adjustment, as well as post-meal. I did take my book outside for a bit to still enjoy the break in my workday.

I think if things continue at this rate, I will cease taking the Chantix in a week or so. I guess I was supposed to start taking two pills a day (2 mg) today, but I don't really see there being a need for that, considering I haven't smoked for a few days anyway, and the desire is beginning to curb. I won't lie though, the IDEA of smoking is still appealing. I'm just the type of person who is stubborn enough to stick to something once I set my mind to it, even if it goes against my desire "in the moment". The real test will be when I am no longer on the Chantix at all, and drinking. I hope I am strong enough!