There is much happening in my life and the lives of my loved ones. Big events that leave you changed forever. I stand in the middle, watching and feeling as these circumstances happen. I am trying to abandon control.
Said goodbye to a beautiful soul yesterday as her loved ones gathered in a bittersweet celebration of her life. Her 6 year old daughter, Mia, danced on stage singing, "twinkle twinkle little star". She seemed totally unaware of the severity of the situation at hand. Poor beautiful baby. I pray your gentle spirit dances with her, Sweet Jamie. Sleep easy.
As the yin/yang would have it.. when the soul of a magnificent beauty departs this world, a new enters. One of my dearest friends, Kipp and his lady Kyrie welcome to Earth the beautiful Kaylie Jay Williams!
As the yin/yang would have it.. when the soul of a magnificent beauty departs this world, a new enters. One of my dearest friends, Kipp and his lady Kyrie welcome to Earth the beautiful Kaylie Jay Williams!
She is pretty much going to be the coolest little kid ever born. Can't wait to go meet her! Love the idea of finally getting the Auntie status I've been dreaming of. Baby hunger can now be nourished! She already looks like Kipe... young pad wan! Love her.
Other things: close knit and very serious family problems. Each are in relation to substance abuse/addiction and the effects these things have on families and lives. Please mutter an extra prayer, if you're the prayin' type. My family could use all of the help we can get.
In regards to ME and my life, I'm finally turning that corner to spiritual and emotional recovery. Being in an emotionally abusive relationship really takes it's toll on a girl. My biggest struggle as of late has just been trying to pinpoint the insecurities. Where do I feel most vulnerable and likely to retreat into myself? What specific environments make me feel comfortable? I reassure myself (because it's the damn truth) that being introverted is more uncomfortable to me than anything. It's not who I am! I am beautiful. My feelings, statements, and opinions are interesting and valid. People [usually] like me! I'm trying to allow this delicate flower inside of me to flourish, and return to it's once resilient strong state. I am choosing environments and people who make me feel empowered. I am speaking positive mantras in regards to body image, social situations and my own personal feelings. I am worthy of your love and acceptance! If you disagree, you're not worthy of mine! Just keep tellin 'em that, girl..
When I'm wearing my own skin, laughing out loud in a group setting, I know I'm being my authentic self. When I choose not to vocalize for fear of judgment or shame, I am being deceitful and fake. Today, I choose to be my best self!
With strong conviction in the content of my character, the amount of love and support I have to offer those close to me, I have no reason to feel insecure or unlovable.. because I am leading my best life! I choose honesty, integrity, love, laughter, kindness. Life is about showing up, y'all. The rest will take care of itself.
We tread on such fragile ground when we allow fear to stand in our way. Be you! Be honest! Express feelings! Each time I lose a friend I remember just how temporary all of this is. It's time I start letting people know; letting my true self show. For real this time, I strive to live authentically.
Other things: close knit and very serious family problems. Each are in relation to substance abuse/addiction and the effects these things have on families and lives. Please mutter an extra prayer, if you're the prayin' type. My family could use all of the help we can get.
In regards to ME and my life, I'm finally turning that corner to spiritual and emotional recovery. Being in an emotionally abusive relationship really takes it's toll on a girl. My biggest struggle as of late has just been trying to pinpoint the insecurities. Where do I feel most vulnerable and likely to retreat into myself? What specific environments make me feel comfortable? I reassure myself (because it's the damn truth) that being introverted is more uncomfortable to me than anything. It's not who I am! I am beautiful. My feelings, statements, and opinions are interesting and valid. People [usually] like me! I'm trying to allow this delicate flower inside of me to flourish, and return to it's once resilient strong state. I am choosing environments and people who make me feel empowered. I am speaking positive mantras in regards to body image, social situations and my own personal feelings. I am worthy of your love and acceptance! If you disagree, you're not worthy of mine! Just keep tellin 'em that, girl..
When I'm wearing my own skin, laughing out loud in a group setting, I know I'm being my authentic self. When I choose not to vocalize for fear of judgment or shame, I am being deceitful and fake. Today, I choose to be my best self!
With strong conviction in the content of my character, the amount of love and support I have to offer those close to me, I have no reason to feel insecure or unlovable.. because I am leading my best life! I choose honesty, integrity, love, laughter, kindness. Life is about showing up, y'all. The rest will take care of itself.
We tread on such fragile ground when we allow fear to stand in our way. Be you! Be honest! Express feelings! Each time I lose a friend I remember just how temporary all of this is. It's time I start letting people know; letting my true self show. For real this time, I strive to live authentically.
